Disorder


Poetry - General
62 Pages
Reviewed on 02/23/2025
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Author Biography

T. Kudla (author name of Thom Kudla/Thomas Kudla) is a prolific, award-winning poet and author who has written and published more than 20 books. T. Kudla is a three-time IndieReader Discovery Award Winner, including the latest win in the 2025 Poetry (Fiction) category for WAKING UP AT THE GATES: POEMS OF RECOVERY, HEALING, & TRANSFORMATION. In addition, Kudla’s latest memoir, FROM MADNESS TO MAD PRIDE, was recognized as a category finalist in the 2025 Eric Hoffer Book Awards.

Kudla’s book HOW I AM DIFFERENT was named a finalist in the Poetry Category of the 2017 Next Generation Indie Book Awards. The ebook version won multiple medals in the 2017 Global Ebook Awards. HOW WE ARE DIFFERENT (HWAD), an Apple app based on that book, earned two gold medals in the 2018 eLit Book Awards and was recognized by the IBPA as a Benjamin Franklin Digital Award Silver Honoree.

Kudla’s earlier books of poetry COMMENCEMENT and OUT OF CONTEXT won the 2017 IndieReader Discovery Award for Poetry. Kudla’s first memoir, WHAT MY BRAIN TOLD ME, was selected as a finalist in the short story non-fiction category of the 2009 National Indie Excellence Awards. Kudla’s writing was anthologized in many books, including CHICAGO AFTER DARK and SILVER: AN ECLECTIC ANTHOLOGY OF POETRY & PROSE.

T. Kudla earned a Master of Arts in Writing and Publishing from DePaul University and a bachelor's from Indiana University, Bloomington, concluding those studies by being awarded a grant to write a debut novel. Kudla also attained an NYU Filmmaking Certificate.

    Book Review

Reviewed by Lit Amri for Readers' Favorite

Divided into three parts, Thom Kudla’s Disorder lets readers explore the complexity of mental illness. The thoughts resonate through narrative and unconventional typography art. In Part I: Clinical, The Photosynthesis of My Family Tree and I Am the Moon’s Son are not easy to read, literally. On the other hand, I realize that all the typographies in this collection are visually symbolic. Kudla ponders on role models, the saints and the sinners. Eclectic, well-known names such as Tolstoy, Hemingway, and even Cobain become subjects to his musing in terms of emotion and vulnerability. Then there’s the Eve Within, a blunt confession on gender dysphoria. 

In Part II: Personal, The Presence of Mind charted life as he aged through the years until the present, briefly recounting his paramount view of each year, what he did, and what he went through. Earthly Prison is the one that I think most people can relate to, as life itself can feel like an unbearable cage at times. The last part is Social, where Finding Love is another universal poem that all believers, dreamers, thinkers, and lovers can connect with.

On the whole, Disorder has a nonchalant approach regarding clean technicality in terms of free verse or stanzas which strangely propel some of the poems forward, while others feels a bit abstract, glib or hazy. There’s an intangible fixation on a number of the poems that I personally couldn’t figure out. That said, the collection is undeniably passionate, intriguing, and a unique masterstroke of Kudla-his ingenuity of expression.