Behind the Badge: From Police Chief to Opioid Addict

A True Story of Ruin and Redemption

Non-Fiction - Memoir
254 Pages
Reviewed on 08/02/2026
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Author Biography

Scott Fleuter is a retired police chief, author, and recovering opioid addict. His road to recovery included several trips to hospital behavioral health units, detox centers, and long-term residential rehabilitation centers.

His mission is to ignite a spark of hope for addicts and recovering addicts; to foster the courage it takes to make big changes in life, even when odds seem insurmountable; and to rekindle faith in a world where despair has become the rule.

    Book Review

Reviewed by Jamie Michele for Readers' Favorite

Scott Fleuter’s Behind the Badge: From Police Chief to Opioid Addict follows Fleuter from a childhood where danger teaches his body to react before thought into a law-enforcement career that makes protection his public role. He starts as a street officer and eventually becomes a police chief, yet pain from repeated injuries leads him into a medical system that keeps handing him prescriptions. The memoir is framed through sessions with therapist Ursula Schmidt as she asks the questions that send him back to the boy, the officer, the patient, then the man no badge could save. Fleuter also writes directly to readers living with dependency, placing practical tools beside memory so the book becomes testimony with a reader’s use. His story asks how a person trained to rescue others learns to stay alive himself.

Scott Fleuter’s Behind the Badge is a first-rate inspirational self-help memoir and gives readers advice they can actually use. His addiction advice has a lot to offer, like telling readers to write down why they want to stop before withdrawal starts arguing back. The standout for me, which can really be used by anyone who has anxiety issues, is his Somatic Experiencing discussion where, for example, cedar oil becomes a small signal that tells his body it can settle before panic takes over. Fleuter writes conversationally with accessible explanations in a raw and honest way. I love that he is clear that in spaces such as peer-counseling, serving other people cannot come before staying steady oneself. Well written and genuine, readers who want an addiction memoir with real recovery tools will adore this.

Laura Zeliff

This is a raw and touching story about a man who had it all...wonderful family, a successful and significant career, and on the path to a good pension and retirement. However, over prescribed pharmaceuticals takes Scott down a horrific path of destruction and loss. Reading his story you realize no one is exempt from the possibility of addiction. What I truly loved about this book is Scott's, and his wife's, perseverence in the face of unbelievable pain, depression, and loss. Scott provides an insight into addiction and recovery that I believe can help many who suffer from addiction or have loved ones dealing with addiction. This book gives you hope.

Lisa Davis

A GRIPPING STORY OF OVERCOMING ADDICTION
Not only does this book deliver a powerful, gut punch of a gripping story but it also offers hope and real tools to overcoming addiction. A must read for anyone who is struggling with addiction or anyone who knows someone who is struggling with addiction.

Gale

A MUST READ
This book is an honest and well thought out tale of an inside look of the journey that an opioid addict went through with all of its pain and lows. It also has some very valuable insights and survival tips to help people who may find themselves in this situation. I think this book will help everyone from the therapists to the families of the afflicted addict. It is a must read.

Diana Van Vleck

FIVE STARS
Behind the Badge is that rare kind of memoir: the story of one man’s descent into addiction and back out again, told with clear-eyed authenticity. Scott Fleuter’s journey is one of persistence and grit through the highs and lows of addiction and recovery. Utterly engrossing, achingly honest and never self-pitying, Behind the Badge is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit.

Scott G.

OPIOID STRUGGLE: ESSENTIAL READING FOR ADDICTS, FAMILY, AND FRIENDS
This memoir is a gripping, unflinching account of the author's struggle with opioid addiction and his challenging path to recovery. The raw honesty brings to life the harsh realities of addiction, while also offering unexpected moments of humanity, humor, and hope. It's a crucial read for anyone seeking to understand the personal impact of the opioid epidemic. Whether you're battling addiction, supporting a loved one, or simply want to gain insight into this pressing issue, this book offers valuable perspectives and insights. A timely and important contribution to the conversation on addiction and recovery.

Jim

TRUTH IN THE RAW
My first thought was a better title might be: To Hell and Back. Then I realized you never get all the way back.

The author presents himself, the problem, and his road to recovery simply, honestly, and in the raw. He provides a real view of his addiction and adds tips on how he dealt with it, while letting us know each journey is personal and unique.

No magic solutions, no psycho-babble; just plain truth and real vivid stories. It’s a fast read, but not an easy one.

Makes you think about your own addictions.

heidigolightly

THE DOWNWARD SPIRAL
This is the book for everyone to finally understand, from the first person point of view, the downward spiral life can take in an instant. Fleuter has shared his deepest, darkest secrets that took him from being a steward of the law to caving in to the euphoria of opioids. He is honest, brave, and resilient which shows how much strength it takes to fight the fight. Thank you Scott for giving powerful accounts so we can share with others in need.

Honey West

A STORY OF HOPE AND PERSEVERANCE
Thoughtful and beautifully told story. The author is honest and never preachy. Even if you have never struggled with addiction, or have a loved one who has, there are some wonderful insights that Scott shares with the reader. I highly recommend.

Erik F

A real look at a hero's downfall, with hopeful tips for recovery and solidarity

A gripping memoir that pulls readers into the emotional world of the author: a self-proclaimed "adrenaline junkie" and law enforcement agent, but also a family member going through challenges. The stories throughout the book give context, and sometimes humor, to the trauma, injuries, and pressures that spiral to addiction. The follow-up therapy sessions help understand how easily someone dedicated to serving others can become overwhelmed by pain and circumstance.

Each chapter ends with helpful tips for those facing their own struggles or supporting loved ones through trauma or addiction. Recommended for anyone who wants to understand the road to recovery.

Emily Homza

You’ll get drawn in immediately—deceptively easy read that is smack you in the face powerful. Heart-wrenching yet unexpectedly humorous and unabashedly real. Read. This. Book. (And tell your friends

Lyn

GRITTY BUT FILLED WITH HOPE AND OPTIMISM

This gripping memoir is a fierce reminder that addiction recognizes no boundaries of race, class, education, or social respectability. Fleuter’s journey is particularly harrowing given his dangerous and challenging career in law enforcement, childhood experiences that contributed to destructive belief systems, his battered body as an athlete and adrenaline junkie, and the abundance of opioids distributed by physicians before their true dangers were known. But addicts of every stripe (alcohol, drugs, food, shopping, exercise . . . ) can benefit from this book. Its structure is especially interesting. In each chapter Fleuter shares with his therapist a key episode from his history. She guides him to an understanding of the psychological ramifications of these events and how they set him on a pathway to addictive patterns. At the end of each chapter, Fleuter shares useful tools for managing triggers, battling cravings, and even surviving detox. Many of these tools offer practical value to just about any reader. A must read for any addict or person who loves an addict.

Robert M Knight

DEVIL IN THE DETAILS
WAHOOIE an excellent read of problems caused by Big Pharma and Medical doctors and how they were dealt with over a span of years. My favorite personal joke is… WHAT DO YOU CALL A MEDICAL STUDENT WHO GRADUATED LAST IN HIS CLASS …….DOCTOR. The Greed of our society is on full display in this dispensary of Drugs that hurt not help. Therapy that works is costly and takes a lot of time. The Redemption and ways to help yourself and others who are caught in this CYCLE is impressive. Lots of info on therapy that works. The DEVIL is in the DETAILS. READ & HEED!

Carrie Kate

Deep self-discoveries.

Andrea Dee Voss

ADDICTION COUNSELOR APPROVED
As a retired addiction counselor, I highly recommend this book for many reasons: it’s very readable; it describes the pain and hopelessness of opioid addiction in realistic detail; it shows the devastation addiction causes in families; it demonstrates the need for a large network of professionals, family, and friends needed to help guide an addict to recovery; and finally it offers hope. I especially liked the techniques of the therapist and the tips suggested for working towards recovery. An excellent, believable story.

Tez


I laughed. I cried. I learned. What more can you ask for in a book?

Jill Althouse Wood

SEEING ADDICTION IN ITS FULL HUMANITY
I suspect Scott Fleuter had at least three reasons for writing Behind the Badge. First, to grapple with the story of his own life. Second, to offer something useful to people struggling with addiction—or loving someone who is. If a police officer can find himself on the wrong side of addiction, it’s a reminder that this disease can reach anyone. And third, more quietly, the book often reads like a love letter to his wife, Lori, whose steadfast presence runs through the entire story.
I’m not drawn to suffering as spectacle. What I value are stories that let us root for flawed human beings. Addiction is one of the defining epidemics of our lonely era, and I don’t think looking away helps anyone. I’d rather see its human face—in all its nuance.
Scott structures each chapter through the lens of therapy: beginning in the therapist’s office, moving into the memory being examined, and ending with practical reflections from his recovery. Along the way he walks us through childhood, the pressures of police work, addiction, and the difficult work of rebuilding a life.
Behind the Badge isn’t a perfect book, but it is a deeply human one—and that humanity is exactly what makes it worth reading.

Jean Semrau

Great book!!! And helpful for all of us; even if we don't have the same history, we all have anxiety and past trauma of some kind to deal with. I was moved to tears.

Brian

RAW AND REAL

This book explores how the author portrays the often unspoken realities behind the badge and the stigma surrounding addiction, as well as the broader reflections these themes offer about resilience and redemption.

C&J

Please think about ordering this quick read book. I have never known what an opioid user truly goes through and this book is certainly an eye-opener. It is emotionally raw, filled with an addicts truth and steps to help in the struggle. This isn’t just for the opioid user, but for any addiction with the help of some survival skills. Read it for yourself, for someone you know, or just to learn about the horrors in the life of an opioid addict.

Dorothy

Loved the writing style and the heartfelt and sincere lessons learned that others can take encouragement from

George Steinkamp

A very powerful book about a very powerful subject. A must read for living in our current times!

luca

A REVEALING TRUE STORY: OVERCOMING DEPRESSION & ADDICTION& NOT GIVING UP!
I retired from many yrs of nursing. In my opinion this book can educate & inspire others about successful therapy for depression, hopelessness, & any addiction when you do not give up & seek help from experts along the way. This true story book belongs in in medical schools, college & public libraries, rehab treatment centers and more. Mr. Scott Fleuter writes in clear understandable details including feedback from “Dr. Ursula”.
Scott includes many healthy survival tips along his journey back to health and happiness with his wife. This well written book is easy to read (&re-read) to absorb so many insights about any addictions & life’s stressors. (“overeating”, sugar, smoking, inactivity due to long hours on internet, social media/ gaming daily etc) It brought tears and smiles with a positive outcome! High 5!

LibraryGirl759!

Can’t put it down!

Unapologetically powerful. Once you start, you will not be able to put it down. Dry humor shines through as a man faces trauma, addiction, betrayal, and deep layers of hurt that led him to this moment. Yet hope somehow makes a comeback—a must read for all. Go get this book!!!!

Camille26

Fascinating Glimpse into the World of Addiction

I couldn't put this book down! This gifted writer draws you into his story. I found myself needing to know the details of his journey and what it took to get to the other side of his addiction. While it was incredibly hard to be shown the dark side of the mental health system in our country, this is a heartwarming story of the struggle, perseverance, and ultimate success of Scott and his family. This book gives family members, friends, and concerned citizens a much needed view of what it takes to deal with addiction, and offers helpful strategies to do so.

Rain S.

A thoughtful tale of struggle and recovery

I enjoyed the way this book shared the author's history through stories and (sometimes traumatic) adventures, then reflected on addiction and recovery through therapy. Each chapter also ends with some helpful tips for dealing with challenges and recovery. Would recommend to anyone struggling with, or with a family member dealing with trauma from addiction or really any other cause.

Ldvoice

An intense read and a lot of great advice!

Scott Fleuter does not hold back in sharing his story and his difficult journey out of addiction. His willingness to open it all up is a guiding light in what can be deep darkness. And, at the close of every chapter , he hands you tools to help light your way. Excellent read!

LAZ13

Great true story about overcoming addiction.

path to a good pension and retirement. However, over prescribed pharmaceuticals takes Scott down a horrific path of destruction and loss. Reading his story you realize no one is exempt from the possibility of addiction. What I truly loved about this book is Scott's, and his wife's, perseverence in the face of unbelievable pain, depression, and loss. Scott provides an insight into addiction and recovery that I believe can help many who suffer from addiction or have loved ones dealing with addiction. This book gives you hope

LindaMac

Impactful

This was such a heartfelt, honest and personal story. It truly brought home the ups and downs and terrifying grip of addiction, but without excuses or the least bit of self-pity. I applaud the author for his courage in opening himself up to family, friends and the world in order to help people through their own journey of addiction. Highly recommended.

Mark D.

Fascinating read!

Still working on my second box of Kleenex. . . fascinating story, excellent writer.

Themelgalaxy

Captivating

I was captured by the earnest storytelling and the simplistic style of just getting to the point, which is so valuable in itself there is no need for fluff or over clarification. The tools he recommends at the end of each chapter are spot on for the experiences he describes and are useful in everyday life. Very well thought out for the benefit of all. A gift. Thank you Scott Fleuter and the team of people that got this book out.