Heart Knocks, from Strayed to Straight


Non-Fiction - Memoir
399 Pages
Reviewed on 05/26/2026
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Author Biography

B. Lou Guckian is a native Texan who resides in San Antonio. Lou is a three-time Bronze Quill award winner and nationally published writer. She holds post-secondary degrees in communication and communication arts from Southwest Texas State University and the University of the Incarnate Word. Following a 25-year career in both the federal government and corporate business world, including owning and operating a communication consulting enterprise, she wrote two nationally published exposes, one on pervasive elder abuse and neglect and another on medical hypnoanalysis. Lou attributes the goodness and hope in life to the one Creator—and willingness to believe. Read more at GuckianWriter.com.

    Book Review

Reviewed by Romuald Dzemo for Readers' Favorite

B. Lou Guckian unflinchingly tells her story from a broken person to healing in Heart Knocks: From Strayed to Straight, a searing memoir. The memoir follows the author through years of self-destruction to spiritual redemption. She writes about her rebellion as a teenager, her marriage to an addict, the divorce, and sexual exploration. Then the loss of her brother, Roger, to a drunk driver, and her father to abusive neglect and cancer. She identifies twelve spiritual deaths that stole her life and plunged her into codependency, alcoholism, and promiscuity before redeeming herself through the twelve-step program of AL-ANON. The journey of her recovery is filled with powerful insights and spiritual awakening; she reconciles her identity and returns to heterosexuality after many years of lesbian relationships.

Heart Knocks: From Strayed to Straight is the story of how life can break us in ways we never expected, but the author shows us that we can always reclaim our identity and worth after being broken beyond repair. She shows the power of following our spiritual path with how well she explores her Christian faith and the spiritual exercises. B. Lou Guckian examines the inheritance of trauma and celebrates the possibility of radical metamorphosis in her memoir, in a voice that is raw and that defies sentimentality, even when narrating some of the most disturbing episodes and events in her life. The idea of organizing this book through twelve spiritual deaths was fascinating, and it felt like the author consciously invited me to use the same method when doing inner work. This book is filled with life, emotion, faith, and with places that are described in a way that makes you feel as though you were seated beside the author. I was swept away by the spiritual currents that run through this narrative.

Susan Price

If you are ready to be broken open and really explore your life and its meaning with clear eyes, this memoir can serve as soul food and a guidebook.

And if you have experienced a hard knock - what the author calls a spiritual death - these tend to propel us through life lessons and growth.

The book is also a well-told tale of growing up in San Antonio, Texas, in the 60s and 70s. Motorcycles, Native American traditions, RV travel, and lifelong learning. A fascinating life we’ll-lived, told in a series of highly readable, lively tales

Heather

Numbers, as Lou points out, do have a very finite way of helping us understand things or situations in a way that we may not recognize without them. I loved your descriptions of your travels and the people you loved dearly (Daddy, Mama, Roger, Kelly, Jim and the other Recovery group sponsors, and others)! At first, I thought the second half of the book about your experiences in learning about the American Indian cultures could have been a separate book that focused more on them and how your life changed, but, as I kept reading, I realized that both halves of the book needed to be together to tell the full story. I loved reading about your experiences in learning about the Indian cultures. Overall, I absolutely love your story. I think you set the example for actively learning and applying what you learn from recovery. More people need to learn from your experience because there is no easy way out. True recovery never ends; instead, it evolves into new beginnings and ends and (as you said at the end of the book) ‘befores’ and ‘afters’.

Milena Powell

“Betty Lou’s book is very emotional and educational and I loved reading it, especially her Daddy’s stories of the war. Many Americans do not understand the sacrifices men like her father made for the rest of us. The chapter about her recovery and working the 12 Steps taught me to concentrate on improving myself instead of focusing on everyone else’s faults. Her book is family-oriented and applies to people of all ages past childhood and I recommend it highly to everyone.”

P.L. Guckian

“The chapter, The River, sets the tone for this book. Betty Lou’s courage to tell her unvarnished truth is admirable and inspiring."

Deborah Price Rohan

“What a ride! Lou’s story is mankind’s story of dysfunction and self-inflicted wounds, of trying again and again to get it right but failing. I wrestled with Lou’s recurring bad choices, even exclaiming out loud, No! Don’t do it! I cried with you, Lou, and cheered you on. This book shows all of us there is a better way and Lou found it.”

Connie Schorsch

“I’m not a big reader, but this book grabbed me and kept me reading.”

Amazon Customer

“Author Lou Guckian’s book Heart Knocks is her incredible life journey. She shares her story of her family growing up in Texas. Also discusses the dysfunction unhealthy relationships mental illness & traumas she’s endured. We all can relate in one way or another. The lessons learned & her spiritual journey is a must read!”

SA Amazon Customer

“Well written. This book was actually written very well. A few accounts of things that were embellished but this book gave me a lot of insight into this writer's mind and gave a huge amount of understanding as to where this writer was coming from. Always knew you were a good writer...”

Lynn D.

“Wonderful book. Wonderful story of no matter what happens in your life, God is always with you.”

Don Hardy-Holley

““Were I still in private psychotherapy practice, Lou’s book would be required reading for my clients. It is insightful, honest and directive as well as spiritually and emotionally challenging. Betty Lou is a genius with words. She obviously knows the English language and how to put it together to tell a strong story.”

Beth A. Willstrop

“Well done. I don't like memoirs, but Guckian's writing kept me intrigued. I am not excited by religious revelations, but Guckian presented her revelations with humility and grace. I, too, come from family dysfunction, so much of her story was also my story. I congratulate Lou Guckian for being able to hang on to my interests. We'll done!”